It's either really fucking cold in my house or really fucking hot....right now it's really fucking cold.
So Lansdowne recently purchased the most amazing van ever. You can check it out on our myspace www.myspace.com/lansdowne it's in the latest blog....it is amazing. I'm going on a trip to NY on saturday to pick it up with Jon so it's gonna be sweet. I'm enjoying my four days in a row off. Lansdowne is preparing for our show schedule which will hopefully start in December if all goes as planned. I'm still really cold so I'm going to go hide under a blanket now.
So I figured I haven't updated this in a long time so I should.
I've been doing a lot of working and stuff so that's been a blast. The bands been practicing and the best news we have is that someone invested $10,000 in us so we can record our cd which will be out in June of '06. If you haven't heard us yet you can check us out at www.myspace.com/lansdowne or go to www.lansdownerock.com I've been hanging out with Amanda a lot and that's been great. Went and saw TREOS the other night with Paul and Amanda and treos as usual was ridiculously amazing. Um yeah so I dunno....I suck at these things now. Check out the band if you haven't. I'll update again in a year or so.
I feel like shit. I work too much and get not enough sleep. I don't mind the working, it's just the lack of sleep that's getting to me. I went to work with four hours of sleep the other day. It's also getting to me that college is starting for everyone, and I can't help but feel like everything is gonna blow up in my face...with a lot of things. I don't really have much of anything to do but work, which in the long run I think will be good for me. I really needed some sort of break from schooling. I was unhappy learning at school every day, it was starting to get tedious and I needed a break. I plan on taking from now until January to save up some money and possibly take myself on a vacation. I'd like to move out by the time I go to school too. In brighter news, the band has a guitarist that we'll be working with in the near future so I'm excited for that I suppose.
Nothing seems to be going right at the moment and I'm hungry.
I figured I'd do a quick update before I head to work. Lately I've been pretty busy. Things with Amanda have been perfect. I hung out with her for a little while the other day, then she slept over the other night. We stayed up until about 4 in the morning talking and hanging out in my bed. I love spending time with her. Things are so much better now than they ever were and I'm really happy I have her. I went to Fire and Ice last night with Shawn and Christine and it made me sick. I have to start working at the Old North Church gift shop today which should be a lot better than my old job. I'm gonna be working in Connecticuit for the next three weeks Monday-Friday and at the church on Saturdays. Then after that I'll be working full time at the church. So my summer is pretty much over for me. It went up and down most of the time but it ended on a good note with Amanda so I'm happy. I'm looking forward to being able to do the band full time too and playing more shows. Should be fun.
I think it's funny. All the people in my school that are my friends have always done drugs and or drank since I can remember. Then there were the "other" kids that gave my friends shit for the stuff they did. Now four years later those "other" kids have become complete hypocrits and started drinking themselves. MMM I love our world and the hypocricy that flows in everyones veins. I never gave anyone shit for the stuff they did and I got the same respect in return. So everyone in high school that I was friends with that didn't give a fuck that I didn't do stuff thanks for being that way. To the "other" kids....you're hypocrits.
mmm so life has been very good. minus overworking.ive been making a good amount of money though which is very good. uhhh my girlfriend is super amazing. my new band is pretty good, we have shows coming up which im super excited for....my girlfriend is super amazing....ive been hanging with shawn a lot....my girlfriend is super amazing....hung out with lisa and shawn last night for a short while....did i mention my girlfriend is super amazing....that is all. :-)
Well I'm bored so I figured I'd update this thinger. My birthday was last Friday and me and Amanda starting going out again Thursday night/Friday morning. Shawn took me to get my tattoos which came out wicked cool and I like them a lot. As the guy was finishing up Amanda showed up to surprise me for a minute, and it was really nice to see her again, I missed her a lot. Then me and Shawn did nothing for a little while and we met up with Pati, Steph, Buddy, Meriem, and Amanda at Chili's but I've been sick so I didn't really eat anything. After we went to Meriem's and hung out for a few then Amanda gave me my birthday present which was a picture of us from my prom in a nice frame and I liked that a lot. Saturday me and Christine went out and hit up Boston Market for lunch which is always an amazing place to eat at. We ran some errands she had to do then I decided to get my behind the ear industrial which came out sweet. Saturday night didn't really do anything. Sunday was sweet, I met up with Goyak and we picked up Cate and Kelly. Headed up to Chunky's in Haverhill to see The longest Yard which surprisingly didn't suck and had some funny stuff in it. After we decided to go bowling at Boston Bowl at which I proceeded to rock everyone as Schloob. I beat Goyak at DDR. It's sad I can actually semi play that game but oh well. Then I went home and passed out I think. Amanda came over monday and we hung out and watched Babe the pig haha. It was really nice to be with her again, she's a wicked amazing girl and deserves the best which I hope I give her. Then she had to leave so I think I sat home. I kind of can't remember what I did because I've been so sick. Yesterday I sat home all day and tried to help Amanda with her tonsil attack and then I went to the doctors finally. It was the dickhead doctor that I hate and he hurt my industrial and told me I could have asthma...which I'm pretty sure I don't because I've been pretty active my whole life and never had a problem. Then came home and went out with Shawn to Dangelos and got Brandi and her friend Jen and we went to Mickey's for pool in which was uhhh interesting. Then to the convenience store where I proceeded to buy my first scratch ticket and lose. Then we chilled at my house for a while. Stayed up a little after they left then passed out.
My summers turning around. My girlfriend is amazing, my new band is amazing and I'm looking forward to it, my friends are chill. Aside from this sickness that I have everything is going very well.
____Your Life____ [x] they call me: Tom [x] sex: I'm a dude [x] my first breath of air: June 17th 1987 [x] occupation: Musician, Carpenter, and Gift shop cashier
_____Rewind_____ [x] most memorable memory: LIAWOG shows at the Summit cafe last summer [x] first words uttered: I have no clue [x] first best friend ever: Mmmm this kid Leo in preschool [x] love is: Tricky [x] Been in love?: yeah [x] love or lust: lust is fun, love is amazing [x] best love song: Hmmm......The Nights She Died-Left Unsaid [x] true or false: true [x] Is there such thing as love at first sight?: I think so
__Opposite Sex__ [x] turn ons: Hip bones, eyes and hands [x] do your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: Nope [x] sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex did for you?: I can't think of anything amazing coming to mind at the moment [x] where do you go to meet new people?: Uhh shows and friends [x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: no [x] short hair or long hair?: i like my longer hair and i like my girlfriends even longer hair
__Random__ [x] dog or cat: beagle [x] sunshine or rain: sun [x] hugs or kisses: kisses [x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend [x] summer or winter: spring [x] written letters or emails: written letters are fun [x] playstation or nintendo: playstation [x] car or motorcycle: car [x] house party or club: house all the way [x] sing or dance: i cant do either [x] freak or slow dance: slow
____Lately____ [x] how are you today?: my head hurts but im happy [x] what pants are you wearing right now?: my pajamas for the first time in a long time [x] what shirt are you wearing right now?: this pinkish red shirt [x] what does your hair look like at the moment?: i dunno, the same as it always does [x] what song are you listening to right now?: This Place is a Prison-The postal Service [x] how is the weather right now?: I dunno my blinds are closed [x] what time is it?: 3:47 pm
__More About You__ [x] What are the last 4 didgits of your phone #: 3221 [x] if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: red [x] have you ever almost died?: kinda [x] what's the best advice ever given to you?: I've had a lot of amazing advice in my lifetime, I can't pick out one [x] have you ever won any special awards?: My old band won a battle of the bands once haha [x] what's the stupidest thing you've ever done?: according to my mom, getting these stars on my hands but i like them haha [x] how many kids do you want to have?: In the future...far far away...really really far away....2 [x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?: sprained my wrist a lot, broke my toe, and my nose [x] who do you tell your dreams to?: nobody, i usually forget them [x] is cheerleading a sport?: mmm no
___This or That___ [x] blue/pink: blue [x] summer/fall: fall [x] winter/spring: spring [x] pencil/pen: pen [x] white eraser/pink eraser: pink [x] coffee/hot chocolate: hot chocolate [x] hot/cold: hot [x] cartoons/reality: cartoons [x] bestfriend/girlfriend: *undecided* [x] right handed/left handed: both [x] single/taken: taken [x] only child/siblings: half brother (bet most of you didnt know that)
[x] regular mouse/cordless mouse: cordless [x] loud keys on keyboard/quiet keys: i wish mine were quieter [x] Internet Explorer/Netscape: internet explorer [x] DVD/VHS: dvd [x] singer/actor: singer [x] die young/die old: die happy [x] black pen ink/blue pen ink: blue [x] Rolling Stones/Beatles: beatles [x] Coke/Pepsi: coke
____Music____ [x] do you plan any instruments?: Guitar, bass, and i make pretend i can play piano [x] 3 favorite genres of music: Pop punk, ska, grind [x] Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny: yes, i wear it after the show when my shirt is drenched in sweat [x] Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit listening to?: Yes I listen to blink 182...deal with it ____Labels____ [x] Do you think labels are dumb?: a little [x] What do people label you as?: i dont really know [x] emotional/physical pain: physical [x] being bored/rushed: rushed
___Relationship___ [x] do you believe there's a difference between "love" and "in love"?: yes deffinitely [x] What song describes your love life right now?: I dunno a happy one I don't really know many love songs [x] do you sing?: I used to do backup vocals [x] what color is your room?: off white [x] BW or color photos: BW [x] who cuts your hair?: BRANDI!!!! [x] what color is your hair brush?: the same color as my hand...because my hand is my hair brush [x] what kind of hair products do you use: Pantene ProV smooth and sleek...thats it [x] do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: nope [x] do you use internet shorthand: only when Im texting people [x] how often do you bathe?: once or twice a day [x] are you a people-pleaser: i try to be [x] do you wear make-up?: uhhh no
__Last Person Who___ [x] slept in your bed: If you mean aside from me then Amanda [x] you saw today: I havent seen anyone all day [x] saw you cry: I dont remember the last time I cried [x] went to the movies with?: Shawn to see lords of dogtown [x] went to the mall with: christine yesterday [x] yelled at you?: mi madre i guess
____Ever____ [x] been to NY?: yes [x] Florida?: yes [x] California?: yes [x] Hawaii?: no [x] Mexico?: never left the country [x] Canada?:^^^ [x] dreamed something really crazy and then it happens the next day?: uhh i dont think so [x] stalked someone?: yes i follow little girls around the mall all the time
___Pick One___ [x] apples or bananas: bananas [x] red or blue: red [x] walmart or kmart?: walmart [x] radio or cd: cd [x] drawing or painting: drawing
_The Last Few Questions_ [x] lucky number: 7 [x] weirdest thing about you?: I have more earrings than my girlfriend does [x] What's on your mouse pad?: beads of water [x] favorite board game?: chutes and ladder [x] favorite sound: Silence [x] worst feeling in the world: Being rejected for someone else [x] what's the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: its too early...then i go back to sleep [x] do you like scary or exciting rollercoasters: scary
____Do You____ [x] smoke?: no [x] remember your first love?: yes [x] still love him/her: no [x] believe in miracles: no [x] concider yourself tolerant of others?: I try to be [x] consider love a mistake: no never [x] believe in magic: no [x] have any pets: I want a fishy [x] have any piercings: first and second holes (both gauged) two cartilage on the left ear and an industrial on the right [x] hate yourself: once in a while [x] have an obsession: music [x] have a secret crush: ummm i kind of date my crush [x] do they know yet: i should hope so [x] have a best friend?: shawn [x] wish on stars: yes [x] care about looks: i think there has to be a mutual physical attraction for a relationship to work
___Love /Life___ [x] first crush: mmmm this girl whos name i forget...but i started playing bass to impress her...then i quit [x] single or attached?: attached [x] do you believe in "the one": yup
___Juicy stuff___ [x] have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing:yes [x] have you ever been caught "doing something": no [x] shy to make the first move: i used to be wicked bad but ive gotten better
__His/Her Appeareance__ [x] hair: i seem to go out with girls with brown hair [x] eyes: i like blue eyes [x] height: haha i also tend to date short girls
__Where do you__ [x] eat: wendys and sarku japan [x] cry: everywhere [x] wish you were: somewhere warm but not hot
__Have You Ever__ [x] dated one of your bestfriends: no [x] loved somebody so much it made you cry: no [x] drank alcohol: no [x] done drugs: no. [x] broken the law: yeah apparently not wearing a seat belt is grounds for searching me and the backseat of a car [x] run away from home: no [x] played truth or dare: yes [x] been in a fight: no
__Random Questions__ [x] what's on your bedside: my retainer haha [x] what do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night: i dont generally raid the dridge [x] what's your secret guaranteed weeping movie: i got really upset over big birds big adventure when i was really young
I'm getting sick and it sucks because my birthday is in a few days. I've been chilling pretty much. Hung out with Jenny the other day and last night we went to the A Loss for Words show with her boyfriend was cool. It was wierd seeing al4w because the last time I saw them was when we played with them at AAR. They also had different people back then. I talked to their new guitarist who seemed to be a really cool kid. It was sweet seeing them again, they're finally breaking out of their shell and got signed and are heading out on tour and stuff. After we got pulled over for speeding and the state cop was a dickwad...I'm not going to get started. Let's just say he thought I had something on me and I'm better than all of you because I go to a prep school. Other than that it's been a pretty blah summer. Nothing truly exciting has happened and I hope that changes in the near future. I'm hanging out with Tony on my birthday so that should be fun. I'm gonna get my tattoo started and I'm excited for that. Okay peace out.
Oh yeah...I threw up on the canal on the cape that me, Pat, and Tim played on in February.
I figured I'd do a brief entry cause I'm bored. My prom was Thursday which was cool. Amanda was beautiful as usual. I got prom king which was actually really funny because I thought someone else was gonna get it. After Amanda slept over and we went out to luncht he next day and she left so I spent the rest of the day with Shawn. We've pretty much just been chillin, staying out late and skating and that sorta junk. Me and Amanda are "taking a break" and I'm trying really hard to not get mad at her and give her the space she wants. I graduate this Thursday which is really cool. I'm looking forward to that and me and Meriem's party next week. Should be fun.
THIS IS MY RANT...SO IF YOU DONT WANT TO HEAR MY BITCHING AND MOANING STOP READING NOW!!!!!
So lately I've been going out with this girl Amanda whom is amazing. I really like her a lot and I kind of rushed certain things but it's an easily fixed issue. However, instead of just accepting that this is easy and letting things happen I've been bored and sitting at home. During this time of sitting at home I've gone through many moods, most of which I do not enjoy. I spend a lot of time thinking too much and overanalyzing things and creating problems that aren't real in my head. I then take these fake problems and blow them way out of proportion but I know they're not real. I then think "oh these problems aren't real" then I'm fine and I rinse and repeat the whole process, sending my emotions on a wonderful roller coaster of hell.
I really don't know what to do with myself. I'm losing faith in the music scene very consistently. I don't really want to bother playing music anymore because it doesn't seem to serve a purpose. All it is nowadays is people punching each other to the heaviest breakdown and lyrics don't matter. I'm sick of unoriginal crap. I just want to have fun and enjoy myself but if I make music I enjoy nobody else is going to enjoy it and it'll probably be me writing songs by myself in my room. I dunno this is stupid. I just want to be happy the way I used to be. Last summer was amazing. I had so much fun with my shows and I was happy with all my friends and girlfriend and it was an overall amazing summer. Trip to NY and Penn were amazing with LIAWOG. I feel like the people that should miss these times as much as I do don't even give a fuck which makes me wonder if they were ever really friends/family to begin with. Here I go creating another problem. Although this is a real problem that I should've just let go of by now. I wish I could have a fun band with fun shows and enjoy it while being with Amanda. I think that's what I need. Either that...I need a therapist.
This is kind of therapeutic. I guess getting emotions out somewhere helps. I haven't really been playing any form of instrument at all lately. I'll ocassionally pick up my guitar and strum for a few minutes but then I put it down and I'm done for. I graduate high school in 9 days, I don't know why I'm not having the time of my life right now. I should be out enjoying it. I have a girlfriend, I'm going to prom with her in two days, I was class president, and I graduate in 9 days. On paper my life sounds pretty fantastic, and I have to say I enjoy it a lot. It just seems like right now I'm in a horrid rut and I'm taking it out on the wrong people. So to the people I've been doing this to, I'd say mostly Amanda and Meriem, I'm sorry. I've been naggy haha. Hopefully this summer will be good. Good bye for the last time from me in my high school years. Next time I will be a high school graduate.